You know I wonder of how people talk about the extraordinary personalities and what it would feel to be them, think about the people holding authoritative and important positions , what it would TAKE to be them, how EXTRAORDINARY!
But what I feel is, does anybody realise how difficult it is for an individual to be ORDINARY! What it feels like to be not-the headturner and not the special one that everybody eagerly awaits at a party!
Amidst all of this your heart and mind keep exploring and fathoming what is it that you could be good at! I mean that’s what everybody says right,,,, EVERYBODY IS GOOD AT SOMETHING OR THE OTHER! You try your hand at a few, and for a change you work hard , DAMN HARD! And whether anybody really knows or not, but the blow that comes smashing down to your face dawning upon the realization on you that YOU WERENT GOOD ENOUGH” and you knw wot they all say,, better luck next time,, i'm sure the next round is yours! And all that shit!
It’s only the one who has been there knows how heart-sinking it is! To work your day and night and put all your heart and soul into something and in the end watch somebody else grab it and walk away! It hurts only when you know that he/she did not deserve it! atleast not more than you did!
Recently I read a blog, about how its human nature to feel that “we don’t always get what we deserve” and the question that followed it "DO YOU WANT TO GET WHAT YOU DESERVE" I mean if god-almighty started to give us our fair share of luck , happiness, success, joy and subsequently starting punishing us for our sins and deeds,
If there started a calculating machine , recording all the good and evil we do, and eventually assigning us our fair share for the same!
That made me wonder,, would I rather be happier that way or this way?
Contemplation , comprehension and thoughts followed this question !
I still don’t have an answer to it
But it did make wonder, some times we get less dan what we deserve and sometimes more
All This disappointment , despair and discontent renders us with 1 good thing that oddly enough also stands to be our strength for the next goal, this thing is“HOPE” , a hope that there is some thing better!!! bigger!! planned for us!
My moment is still ahead of me, I have yet to experience it!
This yanks my chain of aspirations, efforts, hard work and leads me to get to working my socks off , maybe this time for the better :) ;)